monday

today i just met with a career services dude for a class of mine.. and he looked at my resume to try to help me improve it.. which went over well it gave me more confidence. that paper is annie on paper for people to choose me judge me..kinda weird. and the time is approaching closer is answering my pray i have been wanting to move in the city for a long time. tomorrow is august 1st and it has been haunting me a bit. it make my stomach tense up a little bit. august 1st is when im supposed to turn in my application for the art institute in seattle. i play this game in my head like how do i know Gods will what if im just being selfish and want to live there.. should i just stay here.. but i know that all the doors are open. i am full of fear. i dont want to feel that bit of failure... what if i dont like it? what if i want to move back to the "oc" that i so often complain about? what if i miss my friends too much? its a chance of coming back weak. i cant let fear hold me back is what you are probably thinking. that with God you can't have fear.

i know.