whats on my brain

switch out some words and i can relate to this song.. even though this song might be a little on the lame side. :)

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
Boston... where no one knows my name...


i have not written very good blogs lately.. i guess not everything is for a blog. so here is my attempt...but right now im trying to work on the balance between thinking emotionally and logically. i am still working on the idea of formulas and the fact that we cant live in them that not much of things in the world are black and white.

and i also wanted to write down some wishes.. just out of the top my head:
to be admired, respected, known, loved. i want to be a mom, teacher, wife, designer, i want to learn how to cook, i want to build patience, i want to learn how to communicate better, i want to stand my ground, but i dont want to be selfish, i want to learn how to listen better, i want fear not to hold me back, i want to follow my dreams, i want to be encouraging and loving to my friends and family. i dont want to be apathetic, start reading the newspaper, hang out with my neices more, love my sister, listen to my mother and father, i want to be myself, i want to add to the community, take naps outside more.

i could keep going but i wont bore you more.

oh one more thing.. i always cry when i watch the baby channel and i watch the birth (ya this might gross some people out.. kaira and josh)welll..i always cry.